There’s been a lot of moving parts in my world so I haven’t been able to post very consistently but I am grateful you are here reading this and I pray this page encourages you.

A common question I think that everyone has at some point is, “How does God speak?”. As I have gone on my walk with God and been around other Christians I have learned that there are many ways. He speaks first off through the bible, then there’s what’s known as a Rhema word where you feel him speak to you. Many people also feel like God will use external sources like a song, a message or a word at the exact time that was needed for them in that exact moment. He will speak in dreams and visions, or through prophetic words. I have experienced all of the above, but what happened recently was something I never knew was possible, but it happened.

One night I was having a rough time sleeping and felt so nauseous, so I got out of bed and decided to spend some rare alone time as a mom of a toddler and read my devotional. The devotional is called A Secret Place written by Dana Piper. I was on day 3, and as I read it she shared about her father’s passing and that she led herself to a deep exhaustion trying to control everything she could because she was not able to process her pain healthily. I read that she was trying to control her husband to the point it was causing issues in their marriage. With a warning that not healthily dealing with these issues leads to sickness and disease.
What I was reading seemed to be exactly everything I was feeling, going through and needed to hear.

I had been feeling a deep exhaustion, my husband and I were fighting about big and small things from that deep exhaustion. It needed to be brought to my attention that I was doing these things from a spirit of control and I needed to give the stress to the Lord and trust what his word says that we are meant to worry and be anxious for nothing by praying about everything (Philippians 4:6). This word I was reading was hitting the nail on the head to hard so I put the book down for the night and meditated on what I had read and planned to pick it back up and journal with it tomorrow.

Here’s where I see the evidence more clearly of God’s goodness. As I opened the book the next day, I read day three and read the same story about her father…but nothing else I read was there. It was a completely different story of how she handled the loss of her father, she was able to cling to God and there was nothing about the spirit of control, deep exhaustion or anything I read the night before. I shuffled through the book to see if the pages stuck together but it wasn’t anywhere.

God rewrote the words and spoke to me through the words on the page. I pray that I can take that word to heart and look at the challenges as an opportunity to release control. I am still a work in progress, but even sharing this now is a powerful reminder to listen to the words God spoke to me.

In what ways has the Lord powerfully spoken to you?